I Tried Saying Yes

In my ongoing efforts to push back against PTSD symptoms, I decided to say yes to everything this weekend. I didn’t die, I’m not freaked out and refusing to leave my house ever again and I had a pretty good time.

Who knew?

I said yes to things that required me to drive, even though driving was not always easy for me and I had to do a lot of work on calming while driving about.

I didn’t get much sleep the first night, and I didn’t let that keep me home the next night, which led to a lot of great relationship building on many fronts.

I checked in with myself a lot and gave myself the option to bail out and head home any time I wanted. Turns out I didn’t need to.

I got as much work done as I could, and then I set it down to do other things and didn’t beat myself up for it.

I let myself learn and observe and be present.

I practiced gratitude.

I left when I was over it, politely but firmly.

I sweated my guts out helping out a friend and in return got a huge return of creative energy. Then I slept the best I have in a long time.

I didn’t stop until I was ready to stop and pushed myself through the old mindsets.

I was honest, kind and open, even when I got annoyed.

I am really, really grateful that I was able to take the risk and say yes.

yes signage on brown wooden chalkboard
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12 thoughts on “I Tried Saying Yes

  1. Wow, that is awesome! Sounds like you really pushed yourself in positive directions AND were really mindful of your limits, and stood up for yourself when you reached them! πŸ™‚ And your efforts were rewarded!! πŸ™‚
    I find that I feel much better when I get out and stay busy, too, and I am going to try to do more of that!

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    1. Probably! I’m having a hard couple of days recovering from it, but not really dampening my feelings about it. It’s a long process for me, but that was a big step in the right direction and I think I need to do it until it becomes less of an effort and more of a state of being.

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