In my ongoing efforts to push back against PTSD symptoms, I decided to say yes to everything this weekend. I didn’t die, I’m not freaked out and refusing to leave my house ever again and I had a pretty good time.
Who knew?
I said yes to things that required me to drive, even though driving was not always easy for me and I had to do a lot of work on calming while driving about.
I didn’t get much sleep the first night, and I didn’t let that keep me home the next night, which led to a lot of great relationship building on many fronts.
I checked in with myself a lot and gave myself the option to bail out and head home any time I wanted. Turns out I didn’t need to.
I got as much work done as I could, and then I set it down to do other things and didn’t beat myself up for it.
I let myself learn and observe and be present.
I practiced gratitude.
I left when I was over it, politely but firmly.
I sweated my guts out helping out a friend and in return got a huge return of creative energy. Then I slept the best I have in a long time.
I didn’t stop until I was ready to stop and pushed myself through the old mindsets.
I was honest, kind and open, even when I got annoyed.
I am really, really grateful that I was able to take the risk and say yes.
That’s great!
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Then I had to say yes to sleeping late 😂
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Thats Wonderful!
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Wow, that is awesome! Sounds like you really pushed yourself in positive directions AND were really mindful of your limits, and stood up for yourself when you reached them! 🙂 And your efforts were rewarded!! 🙂
I find that I feel much better when I get out and stay busy, too, and I am going to try to do more of that!
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Go you! I’m having to be a little more quiet today to balance out but overall I’m pretty excited that I was able to hang in there and build some new neuron paths.
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Thank you! 🙂
Yay new neuron paths!
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That’s awesome! Do you think it’s something you will do more often now?
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Probably! I’m having a hard couple of days recovering from it, but not really dampening my feelings about it. It’s a long process for me, but that was a big step in the right direction and I think I need to do it until it becomes less of an effort and more of a state of being.
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I totally know what you mean about recovering. My husband and I were out way later than normal, a couple weeks ago and the next morning was like oh geez, whyyy?? Haha. Just takes time! 🙂
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Plus getting old haha!
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Yes!! That too! Haha
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