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It Was a Mistake Not to Rest After EMDR

EMDR is intense, even when it’s not successful. I know I need to rest for several hours after, but I did not do that this week, choosing to work instead. Bad idea. Three days later, I have a severe anxiety, am feeling overwhelmed, my sleep has been disrupted and my resting heart rate has shot…

EMDR Round 2

This round was not successful either, although we may know a lot more about why this time. I wrote about Round 1 last week if you want to read what happened last time. PTSD is tricky, and brains are complicated. I had another flashback last night, and while I am not finding my experience with…

Healing Happens as it Happens

If I had been given the choice, I would have hit healing like a crash course, and done it in a day. Healing happens as it happens. It happens when we are ready. It happens as we are able. It does not happen in a straight line. It does not happen in a clear, predictable…

All Else is Failing, So Rest

One of the best things that has come out of my long journey out of numbing is that I am so much more aware of how I feel and when I need to make rest a priority. I often don’t, and that is still a challenge to work on, but I can at least recognize…

Girl Without a Tribe

One of the greatest losses I’ve had – in large part due to PTSD – is my loss of tribe. Because my issues are driving related, getting in the car is a challenge, and I don’t drive unless I have a compelling reason to do so – mostly for work and for networking. I have…