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I Might Have to Quit Sugar/Caffeine

With all of the noticing and checking in about how I feel and when I experience severe symptoms, it’s looking like I’m going to have to give up sugar and caffeine. I’m pretty resentful about it. I’m not at my best right now, and it’s like pushing a block of lead to get through the…

Balancing Doing and Learning

I spent the weekend doing. I showed up, I said yes, I learned a lot, but I focused on┬ádoing. I’ve lost about 15 or so pounds since this time last year, most of which has happened so far this year. I’ve not been paying that much attention to what I eat or how I exercise…

I Tried Saying Yes

In my ongoing efforts to push back against PTSD symptoms, I decided to say yes to everything this weekend. I didn’t die, I’m not freaked out and refusing to leave my house ever again and I had a pretty good time. Who knew? I said yes to things that required me to drive, even though…

“Just Breathe”, But You Can’t

Just: Breathe Calm down Don’t worry about it Don’t let it bother you Smile Think positive Have a better attitude Think about something else Don’t be so negative Try harder Be grateful that —. Those words are so dismissive of the experience of people with PTSD. And we know. We know those things. We’d like…

Working with PTSD: Networking

I would much rather sit in my work cave, at my desk, being left alone while I turn out work for my clients and get them what they need. That, however, is not going to get me where I want to be, and I need to get back into the practice of networking, which is,…

I’m Good, And Far From Great

I’m becoming very uncomfortable in my cocoon. It’s apparently usual for people who have experienced trauma (and those of us who have had our brains wrecked by it) to cocoon themselves in some way to protect from further trauma. Sometimes that can look like gaining weight (me) and sometimes that can look like staying at…