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Leaning In to How Much This Week Sucks

I moved my grandma into a nursing home today. While she moved voluntarily, it was not without a lot of fear and upset on her part and sadness on mine. She needs full time care and I and my family are not able to provide that any longer, except through a residential care situation. It…

Capable in the Face of the Latest Storm

This week is insane.My boyfriend is having a meltdown about moving and about his family.My grandma is having a meltdown about moving to a nursing home. She doesn’t do unknown well at all and can’t figure out how she’s going to eat.My family is emotional about grandma moving to a nursing home and she’s decided…

The Walls Are Up

One of the results of having trauma come back up is that either consciously or not, I feel under threat constantly. So I put the armor on to try to deal with it, because my emotional brain is much, much louder than my rational brain. Which is why it’s ironic that I have such a…

Back to Therapy for EMDR – Update

I’m back in therapy after an incident while driving that has caused me a lot of problems. We were planning to start the eye movement process today, but when we got to the step of creating a safe space and defining that clearly, I had a lot of emotion. It was because I don’t feel…

Catching Up to Some Decisions

I’ve been trying to get caught up after being out of town for work all last week. It was a lot for me to travel, and I went right back into this work week without any time off or time to rest. Not a great move for me, and it’s been difficult to manage my…

Find A Helpful Way to Express It

I’m traveling a lot for work this week, not sleeping much and still getting dozens of emails, notifications and phone calls. I’m irritable, to say the least, and as much as I would love to cut loose and enjoy the opportunities before me, that whole PTSD thing isn’t really accommodating me. I almost got pulled…